Make it make sense…

Apparently now my vibe is OG blog style…. I mean why not?…there is comfort knowing no one is watching or paying attention.

*immediately my mind::: Rockwell - Somebody's Watching Me……)) why brain why? …….. 😅🤣

I’m cringing right now. Today is another type of life receipt. For months I’ve been “trying” to quit smoking weed (Since October 2022). Real talk it makes no sense why I can’t stop…. (usually when my mind is made up, it is what it is)…I actually started 2023 smoke free…it was easy for weeks, a month, but then my birthday…then all these interactions with humans who smoke and I DIDN’t SAY NO???

I know I don’t need it. I’ve proven to myself (collected the data) I’m the same without it. I’m even starting to think I’m a better creator without it...I feel high when I’m not high sometimes. I’m just so attached…to the visceral feeling. To the illusion of freedom, it gives me. Which is why I know I have to detach.

Also— now everyone is doing it, by default.… immediately I want to do the opposite.

The last J I’ll ever smoke? Probably not, but hopefully the last one for a while ;

So today is day one that it actually feels really good about not wanting to smoke. Can I continue to keep showing up?

I’m actually excited to see what happens.

GOAL : To not smoke for the whole month of February... let’s see what happens…TBC.